365 Days of Hypochondria

And other personal happenings.


Leave a comment

May Food Favourites & Home Things (Days 295 & 296)

May food favourites copy

Due to a change in lifestyle, I’ve been exploring foods that I don’t usually eat and prepare. For example, did you know you can cook sweet potato in the microwave in only 5 minutes? I can honestly say that the above four ingredients have been consumed by me almost every day for the past few weeks. As I stated in a previous post, I like using sweet potato as a topping for kale salad. (Tip: adding raisons makes it extra delicious!) I’ve also been using flax seed in my cereal and oatmeal and I use honey to sweeten my breakfast meals. I also like to eat a banana every morning.

As well, I’ve  been trying to liven up my life by purchasing more plants. The little guy down below is my first purchase. A “Pachira Aquatica” also known as a Money Tree! They are supposed to bring good fortune and good luck!

10295295_10152479542297244_4734868105915763770_o

I’ve also purchased three air plants from a local seller and I can’t wait to incorporate those into my bedroom decor. I bought this air plant holder off of Etsy and I also found this old candle stick holder (below) at Goodwill for a dollar. Hopefully it will fit the other two air plants perfectly!

IMG_8878

I can’t wait to show you the finished photos! Have a good weekend!

Advertisements


Leave a comment

New Chapter (Day 281)

Change is underrated. Recently my life has taken an unpredicted turn for the better. If someone approached me about the concept of change five months ago, I would have told them that I liked my life how it was. But really, I was idling at an incredible low, and although I didn’t realize it, I had stopped growing.

I recently cut my hair off. That small (big?) change kind of set me free. I feel like myself again. Now that my mentality has changed, my everyday mood, my thoughts, and my lifestyle have changed for the better as well. I can think clearly and I feel more confident in what I can accomplish for myself.

Too often, low self-esteem can curl us up and cage us. I couldn’t change when I thought that I deserved less than what I do. Unfortunately, it takes time and a few regrets (or simply learning experiences) to incite the change we need in our lives. But eventually, it does come. And that’s something to always look forward to. I am looking forward.


Leave a comment

Coping Tips for Hypochondriacs (Day 280)

1. Write. (You will understand yourself- and your head- so much better.)

2. Talk. Talk to other hypochondriacs. (Meeting another hypochondriac this year was so affirming for me, as she totally understands me.) Also talk to mental health professionals.

3. Gradually try doing things you are scared of, even if you start out small. For example, if your hypochondria makes you fearful of chemicals, try cleaning things more often, but start out with (or only purchase) all natural cleaners. Put yourself in situations where your hypochondria is challenged. In other words, challenge yourself.

4. Tell your close friends and family what triggers you and tell them why it’s important that they be cautious of triggering you.

5. If you are scared of the doctor- visit the doctor!

6. Don’t have immediate support? Try a hotline or app for anxiety such as calm.com.

7. Practice meditation. If you feel like you don’t have the time for it, try meditating when you’re in bed, right before you go to sleep.

These are things that have helped me :). But coping with your coping mechanism is different for everyone!


2 Comments

Why I Haven’t Posted Lately (Days 276-279)

I’ve been trying to understand the concept of longevity and the way that it relates to my mental illness. I am incredibly aware of the constructed-ness of time and the fact that “365 days” essentially, means nothing.

I’ve been thinking of ending this blog early because I feel as if I’ve discovered all that I can about myself for the time-being. I am parched for words and my mental health has been fairly consistent lately. When I have episodes I now know how to deal with them because this blog has taught me so much about myself.

So I’ve been thinking- why continue “365 days” when continuity (neither a beginning nor an end) is really what coping with mental illness is about? I remember the very first day that my hypochondria was triggered but I know that in that moment, I may have already been destined for it. My subconscious chose hypochondria in order to protect itself from a situation, and I didn’t have a say in that. You can’t change a brain (at least I don’t think you can) but you can always deal. Dealing and healing exist for lifetime.

But of course “365 days” means something, even when it means nothing (nothing is always something). And one thing I dislike about my character is my impulsiveness and my sometimes erratic behaviour. I will not quit this project that I set out to complete. I’ll finish it for myself. But after it’s over, one major lesson I’ll take with me is the knowledge that healing is a forward moving process that never really ends.


Leave a comment

The Doctor’s Office (Day 275)

I recently went to visit my doctor for the first time in a long time. All I’m going to say is that even though the experience was awful, I’m glad I got it over with. The only way I was able to muster up the courage was by finally realizing that my ignorance towards my health doesn’t make potential health problems go away.

Appreciate knowledge over ignorance. Ignorance isn’t bliss.


Leave a comment

What I’ve Been Up To! (Days 267-272)

A lot has happened since I posted last. Hypochondria-wise, I’ve been nervous that I’m a)anemic or b)diabetic and I’ve been having a few episodes on and off. For the first time in years, I found myself searching symptoms on the internet. Never again!

With all the health related-worries, I started to eat more healthily than usual. Tomorrow is my first doctor’s appointment in ages so I’m a little nervous about that. We’ll see how it goes.

IMG_8679

IMG_8703

ALSO- I have rekindled my love for thrift shopping. I used to be a sort of anti-consumer in high school but somehow, since then, I’ve become this person who loves to purchase items brand new. A few days ago, I hit up Goodwill and found six great items for 24 dollars and let’s just say the old Kira is back. I’ve also changed the way I grocery shop. I’ve found that when I grocery shop without a list or any specific food in mind, and only buy produce that’s on sale that day, I spend way less money on vegetables and fruits.

As I get older, I realize that there is a strong possibility that I won’t be making a lot of money with my university degree. Therefore I need to stop idealizing lifestyles that aren’t practical. When I was young I always pictured myself living happily in an apartment surrounded by simple, creative things. I need to get back to that.

IMG_8711

Two of my Goodwill buys. Gotta love those button ups!