Add this post to the long list of abnormal behaviours I seem to have accumulated from my extended time as a hypochondriac.
Since high school I have had this issue of pulling at the hair on my head. I didn’t realize what I was doing until my second year of university. I unintentionally happened upon a video about trichotillomania (something I had perviously never heard of). But while learning about it, I felt as if someone had punched me in the stomach. It was sort of a “so that’s what this is” sort of feeling. I don’t compulsively pull out my hair to any sort of extreme and I wouldn’t identify as someone who has trichotillomania, but I do catch myself subconsciously pulling at the hair on my head. Hearing about the condition just sort of gave me some context into why the hell I have an urge to pick at my head. I consider myself extremely lucky because I do it extremely mildly.
Anyways, watching this video was sort of an eye-opener. I had an instant flashback to high school (when it started). I remember sitting on the couch in my basement and watching television. While watching T.V, I would pull out my hair. I didn’t realize that what I was doing was considered ‘abnormal’. I would search for the hairs on my head that seemed out of place. At their roots they felt more damaged than the other ones. I pondered the idea of why this may be: how could the roots of my hair become damaged? I got a lot of relief from finding these hairs and pulling them out.
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