As I said in my previous post, I find hypochondria to be incredibly related to body image. I have had this conversation with Andie and in general, I don’t seem to be the only person who feels this way.
We all feel our bodies differently. For me, my feelings about my weight greatly fluctuate (and my body is altered in return). In the past, I felt the intense need to gain weight as my petite figure made me feel vulnerable. More recently, I’ve become conflicted with food. And especially as a student (even with two part-time jobs), it’s hard to find the time and money to eat and eat right.
My faulty eating habits don’t concern me until I have a burst of health anxiety. It’s almost as if my health anxiety is a doctor tapping me on the shoulder, reminding me to eat my veggies, reminding me to eat breakfast.
I probably have an eating problem (I know I have an eating problem). I didn’t fully realize it until I was lying in bed one night (a couple of months ago) and had a full on panic attack, worrying about my health. It’s interesting, how body issues (as well as issues involving food) can exist alongside hypochondria. It’s the most unsettling paradox I’ve come across in my twenty years of life.
So when it comes to recovering from hypochondria (which is what this blog is essentially about), I need to remember to take care of the other parts of my body. I definitely won’t get better if my brain keeps contradicting itself. These layered issues though, make it increasingly more difficult to work through my mental illness. Do any of my readers who experience hypochondria have a similar experience? If so, comment on this post, this is a current issue I’m dealing with so I would love to hear other stories and advice from those who actually understand what it’s like. Maybe some of us can work through it together.