365 Days of Hypochondria

And other personal happenings.

Loving Germs: it’s Possible (Day 40)

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“if your germs were people I probably wouldn’t hate them, and that’s coming from a hypochondriac”

This quote of mine is reserved for family & good friends, sometimes lovers. I think it’s an amazing thing when a mental illness is temporarily halted by emotional connection.

Germs don’t freak me out around my family. And if any of my family members ever got extremely sick, I would be the first to help them; I would give a kidney to any one of them.

When it comes to relationships, not everyone is immune to my hypochondria. I’m not one to sleep around, but in the context of honesty, I have had paranoia-filled mornings after drunken one-night stands. And I realized that those kind of detached and temporary connections are not meant for me (and my brain). I have to be careful when it comes to developing relationships with people, because my brain is not very trusting right away. I’m often cautious of getting sick. I’ve met a handful of people, however, who I consider the exception; a handful of people who’s germs I have loved, because they come with loving them.

One night I took out one of my friend’s earrings and I put it in my own pierced ear.

“look, now we’re twins”

“hah you’re going to freak out about this later”

but the only reason I did it was because I was testing the theory that I wouldn’t freak out-

and I didn’t.

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